Hey It’s Okay: To Not Always Do Well

I’m competitive. Not just with other people, but with myself. I always want to out-do myself and be the best. Something though, i’ve learnt that it’s not possible and sometimes you just have to do the best you can.

Take my University Course for example. I’m currently studying Criminology & Psychology at the Open University. My first module started last year and i was achieving Grade 2 passes for most of my essay’s. I was good at that module. It set my aim higher for the next module and i felt unstoppable. I felt like i was good at it and not only that, i pushed myself to do better in every essay than the one before. I finished the module looking forward to the next.

Then came this years module. It’s been harder and more difficult to learn and communicate what i’ve learnt in my essay’s. I started on Grade 3 passes. I know, it seems like not a big difference when i write it down, but to see my scores on screen and written down, it’s disheartening. Especially when my tutor pointed out the fact that while my scores were not the best, i might still pass. That was the worst. I panicked. I’m due to hand my last essay in tomorrow ready for Wednesday and i am terrified i won’t pass.  Im at the point where i could cry and i feel miserable because i’m not doing as well as i wanted too.

But, like everything, you can only do your best and i’m trying to work to that. Handing in this essay won’t set out the rest of my life for me and it’s not the end of the world. I have other things that many may not; a well paid job, friends, family, a place to live and when i discount this University module, i’m actually happy. So why let this get me down eh?

So, as i said – it’s okay not to always do well. Sometimes you can’t, other times you can.


2014: My Year

I was having a look through my Facebook at what has happened to me this year and i realised i forgot a lot of the good things, so what better way to remember them than to have a little look back through them!

These are my highlights!

 January 2014

xmas party 2014 2

I went to the work Christmas party: this was always in January as it was cheaper and when everyone could go (there is about 200 people working in my office) but it was changed this year to December so technically we had 2! My hair was pretty much jet black / very very dark brown and i was trying to grow it which still has not changed.

February 2014 

Open University

I started my Open University degree in Criminology & Psychology! Something i was very much looking forward too and it didn’t disappoint.I finished the module in September 2014 which a 77% pass mark which to say i haven’t studied since college 5/6 years ago was amazing to me! My next module starts in February 2015 and i’m excited to see what it brings!

March 2014

Paris 2014

Me & Owain went to Paris! I decided we should go to Paris for his birthday and it was amazing! The weather was perfect and the people were lovely. We ate crepes and drank coffee outside cafe’s and ordered pastries. Almost saw Marc Jacobs but decided walking across his red carpet after he had vacated was good enough for me. We saw all the sights and eventually found an American diner because we still aren’t great at speaking French!

April 2014


April was the time for Harry Potter Studio tour in Watford! I did a post on it here if you want to have a look but it was incredible. Seeing all the props from the film, drinking butterbeer and generally just having a great time with the best ones. Also, the train journeys to get there and back were sooo long, but worth it!

May 2014


May was Sunshine, Sunburn & One Direction. I travelled with a friend and her family to Sunderland to see One Direction and i’m not going to lie, it was great! I also got awfully sunburnt from a day in the park with Owain. More of this sunshine next year please & i promise to wear suncream!

June 2014

world cup faces

In June, me and Owain watched the World Cup, ate a whole lot of pizza and when we weren’t watching football we binged on new of Orange is the new Black and past seasons of Community!  Summer was SO good!

July 2014

July was when i started blogging. It started out of boredom and then i got used to writing and rambling to anyone who reads. It’s turned out to be quite relaxing and i will definitely be continuing in the future.


July, me & owain moved into our new flat by the river in Kelham island. such a modern but cosy flat and i love it! It’s perfect in summer to have the balcony door open and let the fresh air in and in winter, looking outside while you’re so warm wrapped up inside feels amazing!

tour de france

We also were lucky enough to be able to watch the Tour de France go by and cheer them on! Pictures were so hard to take as you don’t realise just how fast they are actually cycling!

August 2014


My hair finally went blonde! after months of dying and trying to make sure it didn’t go bright ginger! Plus, i’ve resisted the urge to dye it brown again. I like being my natural colour!

September 2014

Photo on 17-09-2014 at 21_Fotor

I cut my hair. It felt soooo good. The ends were so dry and damaged and horrible. My hair wasn’t even that long, but taking a centimetre off makes a huge difference for me but it definitely needed it! According to my Facebook i also drank a lot of wine and ate a lot of takeaways. 🙂

October 2014


I turned 24 and someone posted this picture on my Facebook. Perfectly sums me up 😉 I had a great meal with my friends at Bella Italia & Owains mum also made me some hand knitted mittens for winter which are perfect!

November 2014

Blogging brought me a great opportunity to write and contribute to GlossyFinds, a beauty website. The people there are lovely and have helped me so much! They promoted me to Editorial Assistant and now i help with the day to day running of the website, writing newsletters while still writing the occasional post. I couldn’t have asked for more!

christmas jumper

I bought my first EVER christmas jumper! I have never bought one before and i have no real reason or excuse! But it had bells on it so in my eyes i went all out for this christmas season!


This was the month i also really went to town on my nail art. Dots, splashes etc, you name it i tried it. mostly failed, but at least i tried.

December 2014

christmas meal

Had a great christmas meal with the friends, received amazing secret santa gifts, ate far too much food and drank some pretty great cocktails.


Also, we found the best breakfast and coffee place EVER. Totally need to go again soon. I feel like making it a monthly tradition…

christmas tree & candle

My mum made me & owain our very own wooden tree for christmas. It’s awesome & i think this will be out every year with little christmas lights on even if we buy ourselves an actual tree!

It’s really nice to look back through things at the end of every year and i’ve remembered things i realise i don’t want to forget – Tour de France, Paris, time with family & friends.

I feel so lucky for this year & i’m looking forward to next year!


My First Module Result with The Open University

Open University

So, if you’ve read my previous post about why i chose to study with the Open University – if not you can here – you will probably be aware that i had just finished my first module and was awaiting my result – if i failed to mention that, well, now you know.

Today, i visited my module page and I PASSED MY FIRST MODULE :D.

I got 77% overall average for my first module which considering i hadn’t done any studying for a good 5 years, i feel is pretty good!

It was ‘Introducing the Social Sciences’ and i’m next going on to study ‘Welfare, Crime & Society’ which starts in February 2015 and i’m hoping will be more intriguing than the first!

Obviously, i will let you all know how it’s going, but until then, i am going to read for fun & get my brain in gear 🙂


Why I Chose To Study With The Open University..


I never went to University. I came close, but chickened out in the end. Towards the end of college i applied to Derby University & Sheffield Hallam and was accepted to both to study Law. Then i decided not to go.

I got a full time job and continued from there. My mum was very unhappy about it and for a while, i felt like i had disappointed her, which was awful. I continued with my job and eventually moved to Sheffield where i am now.

Knowing i had the security of a full time job, i looked into part time courses at University. My job can be flexible and i figured why not study in my spare time. That’s when i stumbled across Open University.

 A Bit About The Open Uni

 You study part time, usually around 16 hours per week and they give you all the materials you need such as books, audio cd’s and video DVD’s. They talk you through week by week and advise you what you need to be reading or studying for that week.

You have a tutor for each module and they have tutorials in the nearest University to you which you can attend at weekends or evenings to receive help with the course and assignments. They are also available to call or email for additional support if you need it.

If you haven’t had student finance before, you can get this studying through the Open Uni but if you have already had it, you can pay for the courses monthly and the price varies depending on the course.

My Experience So Far

I have found it so simple to understand and the essays are challenging but relevant. My tutor is great at sending emails including tips and reminders and runs tutorials once a month in order to prepare us for the essays. You don’t need to attend these but they are great if you do want too, so informative and you get to meet people studying with you so you can help each other.

You get access to your module and qualifications online, meaning you can talk to other students and tutors through forums and access all your assessment scores and module results. I usually receive my essays back 2 weeks after i’ve sent them in and my tutor marks them and gives me feedback.

I started my first module in February and i handed my last essay in September so it’s only approximately 7 months and 1 essay a month. I start my next module in February 2015 (hopefully, as long as i pass this module!) and as it’s part time, i will be studying for around 6 years to get my qualification.

If i pass my qualification, i will get a BSc Hons degree, which is no different to what you achieve in any other university.

I have been lucky enough to be a part of an Open University project where they send things for you do to in order to ensure the website is easy to navigate and use your feedback to change the website.

My Thoughts

I think the Open University gives those who haven’t been able to attend University a chance to study and it welcomes all ages from 18 onwards so you can learn at any time. Payment for courses are flexible, you can use student finance or pay monthly yourself or if you can, for the whole module upfront.

If you want to check it all out go to the Open Uni Website.

I will let you know when i get my module result back, fingers crossed!