I’m competitive. Not just with other people, but with myself. I always want to out-do myself and be the best. Something though, i’ve learnt that it’s not possible and sometimes you just have to do the best you can.
Take my University Course for example. I’m currently studying Criminology & Psychology at the Open University. My first module started last year and i was achieving Grade 2 passes for most of my essay’s. I was good at that module. It set my aim higher for the next module and i felt unstoppable. I felt like i was good at it and not only that, i pushed myself to do better in every essay than the one before. I finished the module looking forward to the next.
Then came this years module. It’s been harder and more difficult to learn and communicate what i’ve learnt in my essay’s. I started on Grade 3 passes. I know, it seems like not a big difference when i write it down, but to see my scores on screen and written down, it’s disheartening. Especially when my tutor pointed out the fact that while my scores were not the best, i might still pass. That was the worst. I panicked. I’m due to hand my last essay in tomorrow ready for Wednesday and i am terrified i won’t pass. Im at the point where i could cry and i feel miserable because i’m not doing as well as i wanted too.
But, like everything, you can only do your best and i’m trying to work to that. Handing in this essay won’t set out the rest of my life for me and it’s not the end of the world. I have other things that many may not; a well paid job, friends, family, a place to live and when i discount this University module, i’m actually happy. So why let this get me down eh?
So, as i said – it’s okay not to always do well. Sometimes you can’t, other times you can.
Hey It’s Okay: TO BE PALE
Since Wednesday i have been trying out the St Tropez in shower gradual tan (more on this another time) and i’ve realised that i don’t have the time or motivation to keep up a self tanning routine. I’ve tried everything from gradual tan to wash off tan and instant tan. Being a snow white clone has it’s downsides. Every shade of the palest fake tan looks horrific on me. It either develops too dark, leaves streaks, smells bad or just doesn’t look right.
Then i think about the pale – it’s tough finding a foundation that matches and provides coverage. There’s nothing worse than an orange face and white body (MAC have got me covered though, so it’s okay). Pale is great in winter when no one see’s your skin but in summer, everyone i know seems to tan instantly, leaving me looking like i’ve never seen the sun before.
I’ve been doing this every summer since i can remember, worrying about my pale skin, searching for a tan which looks natural and is less effort than most. So, after much deliberation, i’ve decided to embrace my natural snow white skin tone and ditch the search for the perfect fake tan. So to make me feel less awkward about my pale in summer situation, i found some photos to share with you, with my pale skin in all it’s glory!
Here i am with my legs out at Butlins with my best ones.
I even went on holiday and still did not tan. Ibiza 2012.
It’s always a challenge when i decide black tights are not part of my outfit. Christmas Party December 2014.
Paley McPale-rson. Work Closing Party December 2012
and last but not least, the most recent full length photo of me. Imogen’s Leaving Night Out. June 2015.
So there you have it, i’m embracing the pale. It doesn’t look like my skin is that pale in some of these photos but trust me, it is.
Have you ever decided to embrace your natural skin colour?
Hey It’s Okay…
To plan to do all your christmas shopping early but end up running around the shops on December 24th for everything!
To want to put your christmas tree up in November.
To not be able to wrap presents as neat as your parents. Even when you’re 24.
To not want to get up at 8am on christmas day.
To not get dressed on christmas day…
…or to get totally dressed up on christmas day.
a little a lot more than planned.
If you don’t have much money to spend, it’s the thought that counts.
To get excited like a child and not be able to sleep on christmas eve.
To be more excited at the 2 days off work than the presents.
To eat more than 1 christmas dinner.
It’s okay to hope it snows on christmas day because, well that’s the dream isn’t it?
Hey it’s okay:
– to not know what you want to blog about.
Your blog grows with you and eventually, you will find your niche.
– to change your theme/design/header as often as you want.
Change is good and some things become outdated.
– not to post every single day.
A lot of people don’t have time for it & it’s better to post when you have a good quality post rather than ‘ok’ posts every day.
– to envy other bloggers.
There will always be those bloggers whose posts or blog design you are jealous of and this is healthy.
– to say no to brands/PR firms sometimes.
Not everything you are offered will fit in to your blog & you writing about products you aren’t passionate about will show.
– to ask to be paid for your time.
You work hours on a post for a brand time after time and can sometimes not feel worth it. Make sure they know what your terms are and if they’re not willing to work with you, they can’t be that good a brand.
– to aim to beat your previous days views on your blog.
We are all secretly competitive and no one can deny they check their blog stats regularly (it’s good knowing there are some people who read your posts after all).
& finally –
– It’s okay to be different!
There are so many blogs out there and who says the most popular are beauty & fashion blogs? I know some great lifestyle blogs about art, theatre and books so get doing what you love & quit worrying about what everyone else is doing!